Yesterday, I had to meet a bride and groom at Driftwood Shores to go over their vows. After an hour long meeting, I ran to the restroom before heading back to the shop. On my way past the big mirror I glanced over....and stopped dead in my tracks! Who is THAT girl?! Wow, she looks almost slender from the side! I admit that I took another 5 minutes or so just to look at this new body of mine from every angle. I don't have a big mirror anywhere in my house, so I hadn't had the opportunity to really LOOK at myself. I was totally amazed. Even though I know that I've lost almost 50 lbs and my fat clothes are way too big, I still have no concept of how much my body has changed. I had Ken take a 'during' picture of me for some flyers I was making and was shocked again when I pulled that photo and my 'before' photo up and had them side by side in photoshop. Wow. What a change!
It was a huge step for me to actually print out the flyers with my awful picture and post them in town where people know me. Then it occured to me; they all knew I looked like that. They saw me every day! I was the only one that didn't really know how bad I looked!
It's really my hope that making my journey public and sharing my struggles with the weight thing can inspire others to decide to get busy and get healthy. We all have the power to change our situation, but at times we look at how far we have to go and get overwhelmed. When I get to looking at how far I have to go and not how far I've come, and I think that I just can't go another day without an oreo or a candy bar or fries, I reapeat this to myself; "Just for today..." that's it. I just have to stay on plan for today and then tomorrow I can have all I want. Then the next morning I start all over again with the "Just for today..." till I get past the head hungry that's making me want to binge. I'm really very satisfied with my Medifast meals and it's not true hunger, but the head hunger from stress and emotions. This program has helped me to see that.
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Sticking with it
The past few weeks have been a little tough. We have had mass lay offs in the job that I've worked for about 6 years and I'm one of the next to go. With all the stress though, I've managed for the most part to stay on the plan. One of my biggest remaining problems is that I don't eat or drink all the water that I should at times. I get busy and before you know it, it's the end of the day and I've only had maybe two medifast meals and less than half of my water. So, my weight loss has slowed a bit. There for a while I would lose a pound, then stay the same for a week or so, and then lose another pound. This week, I've unofficially lost 2 lbs for a total of 49.5. I say unnofficial because I really should only weigh once a week and that's on Monday. But sometimes the scale gets the best of me and I have to check it out. To think that I'm 1/2 pound away from 50 is amazing to me.
I have another friend on the plan with me and she had a week of staying the same. Last week was one pound. It's frustrating when you do all that you're suppose to and things don't happen. But I keep telling her not to give up. I'm proof of that. Every 1/2 lb and 1 lb adds up. And if we quit now and go back to the way that we were eating, then the scale moves the other way. I just don't want to have that happen to me again. And I hope that she doesn't give up after coming this far. She's lost 24 lbs and she looks great. And she said that she feels good too. Just have to figure out a way to get her though the discouragement and excited about the program again.
It is hard when the scale won't move, but I've learned to just let it go. I make sure that I'm eating what I'm supposed to and drinking my water. I know that my body is just making adjustments and it will start losing again. And I try not to listen to all those well meaning people who say things like "maybe it's just not working for you" and who work hard to sabotage my efforts whether they know they're doing it or not. I think that sometimes our friends and family feel threatened by the changes that we're making and can, knowingly or not, try to get us to give it up and go back to our old ways. I for one am not falling for it this time. At 44, I feel like the time to get in shape and lose weight is now. I'm not getting any younger, but I have to say that I'm getting better looking every day!!
I have another friend on the plan with me and she had a week of staying the same. Last week was one pound. It's frustrating when you do all that you're suppose to and things don't happen. But I keep telling her not to give up. I'm proof of that. Every 1/2 lb and 1 lb adds up. And if we quit now and go back to the way that we were eating, then the scale moves the other way. I just don't want to have that happen to me again. And I hope that she doesn't give up after coming this far. She's lost 24 lbs and she looks great. And she said that she feels good too. Just have to figure out a way to get her though the discouragement and excited about the program again.
It is hard when the scale won't move, but I've learned to just let it go. I make sure that I'm eating what I'm supposed to and drinking my water. I know that my body is just making adjustments and it will start losing again. And I try not to listen to all those well meaning people who say things like "maybe it's just not working for you" and who work hard to sabotage my efforts whether they know they're doing it or not. I think that sometimes our friends and family feel threatened by the changes that we're making and can, knowingly or not, try to get us to give it up and go back to our old ways. I for one am not falling for it this time. At 44, I feel like the time to get in shape and lose weight is now. I'm not getting any younger, but I have to say that I'm getting better looking every day!!
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