One pound closer

I'm down a pound today. So that makes 44 total. And I did better on my eating yesterday, but if I were going to be totally honest, and I am, I ate things that I shouldn't have. Self sabotage. What's that all about?! So, I shouldn't have eaten the peanuts or the 1/2 cup of chili dip. OK, done kicking myself. Can't go back and today is another day. I have 39 days till my 44th birthday and if I start right now and get my act together and do what I know works, there is no reason that I can't be at my 60 lb goal by then. No reason at all. I know that I have the power within me to meet my goals. I just have to figure out why I keep tripping myself up. And STOP DOING IT! I think part of the problem is that it's winter and I'm stressing about the slow business and wondering how to make things pay. Frustrating. I know that if I was located in a larger city here on the Oregon Coast like Lincoln City or Cannon Beach, I would do better. Mapleton is just a wide spot in the road so the challenge is to come up with a way to pull people in from the surrounding areas and get the shop known as a cool place to stop on the way to the coast or to Eugene. Not giving up, but man, do I need to get over this rotten, defeatist attitude! So, todays plan is this: oatmeal (done), shake, soup, shake, dinner, pudding. And two or more liters of water. I can do it. I WILL do it. I want that 50 lbs!!!