Another Mini Goal Passed!

I was beside myself on Monday when I got on the scale and found that not only had I made my mini goal of 50 lbs, but passed it by 3.5 lbs. Things have been so busy with family here, that I didn't do the daily weigh in like I had been doing. I think it had been about two weeks since I had weighed. Very exciting to me. This last week was a real test though. I had my daughter and her friend here and between them, they have 7 children ages 6 and under. With kids comes candy, cake and pastry and at times it was hard to see everyone eating it. I finally broke down and had a small piece of cake with about a tablespoon of ice cream. Didn't taste nearly as good as I thought it was going to. But at least it ended the obsessing that I was doing about it.

It's strange the way that food has a hold on me. Such an addiction that if there is candy in the house it's all I think about. How to get it so no one knows, how much I can eat without screwing up my weight loss. I've found that it's just better not to have it around. It did make me realize that when I get to my goal weight and start adding food back in that I'm going to have to make sure and really watch myself and keep to the healthy habits that I've formed over the last six months so that I never get back to that horrible state I was in.

It seems with this last 10 pounds that people are really starting to notice the weight loss and that feels great. Yesterday I was having one of those days were I was just uncomfortable in my own skin and just felt like the fat girl. Yet I had three different people tell me how good I was looking. That's just what I need to keep to this path. Positive affirmation!

Who's that Girl?!

Yesterday, I had to meet a bride and groom at Driftwood Shores to go over their vows. After an hour long meeting, I ran to the restroom before heading back to the shop. On my way past the big mirror I glanced over....and stopped dead in my tracks! Who is THAT girl?! Wow, she looks almost slender from the side! I admit that I took another 5 minutes or so just to look at this new body of mine from every angle. I don't have a big mirror anywhere in my house, so I hadn't had the opportunity to really LOOK at myself. I was totally amazed. Even though I know that I've lost almost 50 lbs and my fat clothes are way too big, I still have no concept of how much my body has changed. I had Ken take a 'during' picture of me for some flyers I was making and was shocked again when I pulled that photo and my 'before' photo up and had them side by side in photoshop. Wow. What a change!

It was a huge step for me to actually print out the flyers with my awful picture and post them in town where people know me. Then it occured to me; they all knew I looked like that. They saw me every day! I was the only one that didn't really know how bad I looked!

It's really my hope that making my journey public and sharing my struggles with the weight thing can inspire others to decide to get busy and get healthy. We all have the power to change our situation, but at times we look at how far we have to go and get overwhelmed. When I get to looking at how far I have to go and not how far I've come, and I think that I just can't go another day without an oreo or a candy bar or fries, I reapeat this to myself; "Just for today..." that's it. I just have to stay on plan for today and then tomorrow I can have all I want. Then the next morning I start all over again with the "Just for today..." till I get past the head hungry that's making me want to binge. I'm really very satisfied with my Medifast meals and it's not true hunger, but the head hunger from stress and emotions. This program has helped me to see that.